I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
Yesterday, when I read the post announcing Dozer’s passing, I was moved and tears came to my eyes. Dozer was your baby, and you were the best mother to him. In his eyes, we could see his love for you, and we could see yours and how proud you were of him. My thoughts are with you! Dozer will also remain special to us, a beautiful, loving dog that we will never forget.
Having gone thru the pain you’re feeling right now Naji, our wonderful vet Julia sent me a card that was signed off ‘grief is the price we pay for love’ and how we loved our Pip as you do your forever Dozer – wishing you warm hugs and love – Dawn 🐶
It’s so hard having to say goodbye I know, Dozer had a wonderful life with you. Thankyou so much for all the pictures and menu’s. God Bless regards Linda
Nagi to read your letter breaks my heart. We will all miss hearing about the wonderful Dozer. He is now out of pain and you are left to cope with living without him, and the heartbreak and tears. Thinking of both you and Dozer. I had the same situation not long ago so I know how it is. Much love,
Hi Nagi so sorry for you’re loss. Dozer a special boy and so love by you and so many other round the world. Run Fee sweet Dozer.
How lovely it is that you had each other. X
Such a precious time you’ve had together, as with any great love…it is real, it hurts and there is a great big hole when it’s gone. But, as much as we don’t want to, breathe we do, and we wake each day with the hole still there… unfortunately, at some point, we have to accept “that’s life”, and eventually, we move on. The hole is still there, but we step forward anyway…
My heart goes out to you and Dozer. Having just lost my cat Ariel, 16 years on Feb 7, I know what you are going through. May you take solace knowing that Dozer knows he’s
so loved. 😭😭😭🙏🙏🙏
Over the rainbow bridge,
Hugs and prayers from one dog mom to another.
Wrapping you in love where words fall short.
Dearest Nagi, thank you for sharing Dozer and your adventures with us. He was a rascal but I’m sure he learnt that from you.
Stay strong, much love,
Pete xxx
I’m so sorry, Nagi… we’re all sending you our love and thinking of you.
I’m so sorry for your loss. Time is definitely a healer. I lost my baby girl 2 years ago. She was 13. She meant the world and it was so hard to say goodbye. It was time. I can look at her photo and hold my beautiful locket that holds some of her and smile. Remembering her always. As will you. One day at a time. Lots of love. Xx
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Thank you sharing Dozer with us all of these years. True love.
Sending you love and hugs. Such preciousness xoxoxo
Dear Nagi,may God comfort you as you mourn Dozer. I always see creatures great and small sitting by a brook in a beautiful field with St Francis waiting for their beloved humans to also cross the raibow bridge.
Peace and all good to you always,
Kathleen
Sending lots of love and hugs.
They leave us physically, but never leave our hearts-in spirit, they are always there. What a beautiful life you gave him Nagi – full of love, fun and food. Look after yourself amidst those tears,won’t you
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My deepest condolences on the loss of Dozer. I know it’s extremely hard losing a dog. He is a member of the family. Your child. All the best.