I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
A beautiful, beautiful letter to Dozer, thank you Nagi.
I am so very sorry Nagi – stay strong and treasure the memories you made with Dozer. Words are often inadequate at a time like this, but for what it is worth, you are very much in my thoughts….
I’m so sorry to hear this news Nagi. We always checked on the life of Dozer. We feel your pain. God bless you in this time of grief.
we have done this heartbreak a number of times and still we do it again and again our lives are not the same infact empty without our special friends we are now into eight months of another special friend named Lacie a beautiful golden retriever Millions of followed your story with dozers ill health in recent times thank you for your love of him paul
What an absolutely raw, real and love drenched letter you wrote to your beautiful boy. Thank you for sharing it and bringing Dozer into our lives. He had a presence about him that always when I saw a photo of him or heard what the pair of you got up too bought a smile to my face. I’d love to say that the pain gets easier but it’s more you somehow learn to put one foot in front of the other again and live to honour their memory until the day you both will meet again.
Much love to you at this hard time.
Rest now beautiful boy. Xxx
May he cross the rainbow bridge as the dog we have all grown to love. My condolences Nagi
I am so sorry, Nagi, that your special boy is not physically with you. Having lost my sweet pets, I know your heartache. Thank you for sharing Dozer with us all these years. Holding you both in my heart and prayers.
So sorry Nagi. Glad your boy Dozer isn’t suffering any more, that’s the only thing we can be glad about. God bless you and Dozer always 🙏💖
All my deepest condolences, he was loved globally for the happiness he brought everyone. Prayers are with you beautiful Nagi
Through my tears I send you so much love, Nagi. Feeling your pain and thinking of you during this unimaginable difficult time. Dozer will live on in all of our hearts. He is a super special boy. Thank you for inviting us to share his lifetime of joy, laughs and tears. Much love to you wonderful lady💜
a beautiful tribute to a per life well lived. Rest and play in paradise across the Rainbow Bridge with all of our fur babies there until Mom gets there Dozer🐾
Rest in peace, beautiful Dozer♥️
We feel your pain.
After we lost my beautiful golden retriever Jenny I didn’t want another as I didn’t feel I could go through the pain. However we did get another Dog and I then realised your doggies just move across and make way in your heart for the next one.
It does take a little while but it’s worth it. After 45 years of doggies we have none and it’s awful ………
Dozer would want you to get a brother or a sister for him.
Sending you all the comforting vibes possible to help heal your sore heart Nagi. Rest in peace beautiful Dozer.💜
So sorry for your loss 😮💨
Nagi, sorry for your loss.
Nagi, I’m just so sorry to hear about Dozer. For years my kids and I have followed your recipes and adventures with Dozer, and I’m so sad for you. His loss is huge.
All the hugs
Dear Nagi, I’m so sorry for the loss of Dozer and the unbearable sadness you are feeling. I hope it won’t be too long before you can think of him again without such pain. Wishing you so much strength and sending love and hugs, Tracey 🫂xxx
You wrote that thank you to Dozer beautifully, Nagi. Having lost pets, I know the pain. Take care of that broken heart. Sending hugs and love.
Oh Nagi I am so very sad for you at the loss of Dozer.
I too just lost my beautiful dog.
We all could see how much you loved him and all you did to give him the best life possible and he had the most amazing life
I loved reading the life of dozer and seeing the beautiful pictures of him they made me smile so much
Thank you for sharing him with us.
Big hugs to you
Kylie