I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
Dearest Nagi, My heart is so very heavy today on seeing your email. Dozer and all your beautiful stories of him in your life has been a part of all our lives for so long now. There is nothing as special as the non judgmental loyalty and love of our doggy friends. The memories though raw for now, will comfort you as time goes by. You have all my love and hugs, Rosemary in England xxxx
Nagi – you do not walk alone on this journey of heartbreak. Dozer will live forever in your heart and in the hearts of all your followers. Till you meet again on the Rainbow Bridge.
Dear Nagy
I am so sorry for your loss. My husband has just died. & I feel much the same as you. When my much loved cat died aged 20 I felt just the same loss. Love is love whoever it’s for. But loss mustn’t stop us loving.
Linda
Our heart goes out to you with all love. Dozer was a daily joy and inspired us to have our own great big golden baby. He has broken fingers, hearts, treasured possessions, but at 2 years old is a glue in our family – keeping us entertained and doing things together. Everyone needs a Bailey/ Dozer dog cuddle and we are sending one to you in memory of Dozer.
Your wonderful recipes have also been life changing in many ways – my 13 year old son cooks daily and wants to be a chef.
Keep being you – Dozer will always be there.
When we lost another pet after 16 years, my daughter painted a tiny pic of him in a locket. It is a beautiful way to carry memories
I am crying just as much as you are. I am so sorry your baby died it tore me up he 3as so so sweet and loving. I miss you sweet angel RIP Dozer .u will be together again one day until then he waits for you at the Rainbow bridge in heaven. U take care and never forget his love for you and your love for him so sorry
Dozer will always be around you and forever in your heart.
Grief is love with no place to go. Dozer was lucky to have you as a mum. Hugs and kisses
Thinking of you through these hardest of days. My heart aches with yours and Dozers.
So sorry to hear about your precious dozer ❤️
I’m sat here with tears running don my face reading this, and knowing what you are feeling having gone through the same many times. Your memories will keep you forever strong, and the love will never die. Sending hugs. Xx
I’m so so sorry Nagi. 💔
You have Dozers paw prints on your heart,your wonderful memories of the big goofball are yours forever.🥰😍😘
So sorry for your heartbreaking loss, Nagi.
May Dozer’s dear soul rest in peace and may you find comfort in time in all your beautiful memories.
Nagi – deepest condolences to you. Time will heal how you are feeling but please remember the happy times that Dozer brought you. He would want that ❤️ you’re lucky to have had the special bond with your best friend – some people never get that. Love to you xo
So very sorry for your loss Nagi .
He looked like an amazing companion – best dog ever and My heart goes out to you at this moment in time .
Know that he thoughts and prayers of all your ardent fans a with you in your time of loss .
Take care .
My heart is breaking for you Nagi. I know the loss is too painful at the moment but in time the joys are so much greater.
Dear Nagi, any words seem too trivial to sooth the sadness you are feeling.
Everyone who has been with you on your journey is feeling your loss. My heart aches for you too. RIP dear dear Dozer.
So sorry sending hugs xxxx
Sending love & light. 💖✨🐾
No words for such a loss, our fur babies fill our worlds x
Feel your pain Nagi – lost my baby a few months ago. The coat she wore on our 1st & last day together is under my pillow every night. Find something special of Dozers & keep it close. My mum always said that love doesn’t end @ the grave. It lives on in the hearts & memories of those who loved them” – & BOY was Dozer loved by many!! 💋