I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
Thankyou for sharing your life with Dozer.
My adult children and I are heart broken. Your books are precious filled with notes and comments from my adult children
This week as my 19yr old said
Our dinners are in your honour Dozer
Remembered always
So sorry for your loss Nagi. Your love for Dozer was generously shared with so many and brought joy and light to all of us who follow you. Look after yourself, and know that you are not alone.
Oh, you poor darling Dozer was such a beautiful boy.. thank you for sharing so many wonderful stories with us all…just seeing you together made me smile…we all morn your very sad loss and remember he was very lucky to have such a caring mumma xxx
What sad news from you. I am so sorry for your loss, Dozer was such a presence. Take care of yourself, and lots of love to you both, his love just needs to travel a bit further now.
If love could have kept him alive he would have lived forever. So sad for you.
Thank you Nagi for sharing Dozer with us over the years. He has brought so much joy to so many of us. He lived his best life surrounded by love right until his final moments. I wish that for all of us.
Dearest Nagi,
So terriby sorry for your loss, May all the wonderful memories with Dozer comfort you and rest assured Dozer is right there with you, smiling at your from over the rainbow. Sending you love and big big huggs from across the seas, take care.
You gave each other 14 beautiful years full of love , just keep remembering that. 💜
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Yep, I’m crying. All my love to you as you navigate this difficult time.
I’m so sorry for your loss Nagi. Our pets are our family & nothing can ever replace them. Dozer will always be looking down on you with a smile & he will be there for you when it’s your time. RIP Dozer. You were so very loved 🙏🏽❤️
Dearest Nagi and team,
We all feel some of your loss, sorry is not a big enough word, but , you know, all the things you wished for him at the end may not have happened but his wish, that you were there, loving and comforting him, was the only thing he wished for. And he had that . Hugs to you all dxx
Goodbye to Dozer and may the memories you made together, help to heal you and bring you to a time when you can smile when a ‘Dozer’ moment happens… Love and hugs from a person who has also suffered a tragic loss of a beautiful, irreplaceable, loving boy companion. Xxx
Thoughts are with you Nagi at this difficult time. R.I.P Dozer
So sorry you have to go through this Nagi it truly is the hardest part of owning a dog I wish they lived as long as us! What a dear boy he was.
Just so sad for you Nagi. Our pets are simply precious. Thank you for sharing Dozer with us.
Rest easy, beautiful big boy x
So, so sorry. He fought hard. You fought hard. Take care of yourself and take as much time as you need to grieve your best friend and constant companion.
Thanks for sharing Dozer with us. He’ll be missed, but he’ll live on in our hearts.
Heartfelt condolences Nagi
Nagi, from the bottom of my heart I am so very sorry. I know this pain. It’s indescribably horrible. Thank you for sharing Dozer with us and letting us be a part of your family. Thinking of you…hugs.
My heart aches for you Nagi. So sorry for your loss. He was lucky to have you and you were lucky to have him. Such a beautiful partnership for so long. Sending love xx