I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
Oh no! Good bye dear Dozer. You and your adventures will be truly missed by all of us.
Nagi, thank you so much for sharing Dozer with us.
I had tears reading your beautiful post. I lost my cat 2 years ago and I still can’t look at photos so be kind to yourself and remember he had the life of a superstar.
Oh Nagi, I am sobbing for you xxxx thank you for sharing your beautiful boy xxx love you Dozer xx rest in peace
I am so very sorry for your loss and I know how you feel losing the lovely Dozer.
I just lost my dog Tobi on January 20th after 15 years with him. Everything feels so empty.
I’m so so sorry for your loss. ❤️ thank you for sharing Dozer with all of us. Hugs from New Jersey.
Blessings to you both for having so much love for each other, for so long! and for having a little left over for us!
Oh Nagi
There are no words that will help right now.
Your life will not be the same…
Your heart will always have the heartache left by the loss of beautiful, funny, loving Dozer.
We grieve hard because they love us with their entire being, giving us their soul, we are their world!
Dozer will be a part of your soul and soooooo many of your readers forever.
Thank you for sharing him with us
Thank you for sharing him through your fabulous book! Another way he will continue to give his love to the world.
Rest in peace Dozer, your a good boy!! 🥺❤️🩹
Im so so sorry. What a beautiful boy. Such a lucky boy to have had you as his mum. Sending you live
My heart goes out to you. We also lost our Goldie 18 months ago and still not over it. They are the best companions with unconditional love and support. Your broken heart will heal over time, just keep thinking of all those wonderful memories you had together.
So sorry for your loss. Dozer truly seemed like the best friend and companion. May you always cherish the beautiful moments you shared with him.
I’m so sorry for your loss 💔💔💔
So sorry for your loss and RIP Dozer. Our fur babies live in our hearts and never leave. We lost Charlie 9 years ago and it still hurts but he lives on in our two other poodles. Take heart Nagi in knowing you gave Dozer a wonderful life.
So sorry to hear of passing of Dozer, he was a very special dog, loved by you so much.
You and Dozer will meet again in heaven one day.❤️
I have tears in my eyes & I am really feeling your saddness having been where you are now not so long ago. You gave Dozer a wonderful life and he gave you everything you could ever need, hang on to all your memories together,they are yours to keep. I send you much love, I wish I could give you a big hug too. ♥️
Dearest Nagi,
My Heart Goes out to you in your time of sorrow. Even though I Didn’t know him personally, I was praying that he would get better. Now I’m Crying for you both after reading your post. I Will miss the antics that he got into. I am sure that he will not be forgotten and that he is waiting for you in heaven. Thank you both for all the tears of laughter that you gave us through the years. Got to go now,but do take care. Love Trish
I always loved this Irish poem…
May the road rise to meet you.
May the wind be always at your back.
May the sunshine warm upon your face.
May the rains fall upon your fields.
And until we meet again,
May God hold you in the hollow of His hand.
(With heartfelt condolences from New York…..)
I am so sorry for the loss of Dozer… you are a good mom and I know you will meet again.
You gave him all your love for all his life
Thank you for sharing Dozer with us all, my heart is breaking for you, RIL Dozer, Nagi be kind to yourself, you loved him with all your be-ing and he will always live in you heart ❤️
Nagi I share your pain – I have lost 6 furry friends over the past few years, one as recently as last week (2 dogs and 4 cats).Lost my two 17 year old dogs within three days of each other.
We do love them fiercely and as the late Queen Elizabeth said- the price of love is grief.
Hang in there Nagi we are all thinking of you and the beautiful Dozer 💔