I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
We were so saddened to read that Dozer has passed. Its so painful to have a loved one pass. Our hearts are with you through your grief. Hope you can focus on all the amazing happy times you had together. I hope you find solace in knowing he is waiting for you on the other side and close by you every day.
So so sorry for your loss and heart break
Love your recipes
My heart is breaking for you. I’m so very sorry your beloved Dozer has left your world. I’ve felt that pain many times, so I understand. Hugs to you my dear.
Karen
I’m so sorry for your loss. You clearly had a remarkable bond, and gave Dozer an amazing life.
Sorry for your loss Nagi.
So sorry to learn about Dozer ! You were lucky to have him 14 years – it is a record for large dogs. I have lost my Negra after 12 years of sharing our lives and know how hard it is . My sympathy !
My heart is hurting for you on the loss of your beloved Dozer. Thank you for sharing him with us. May the memories of Dozer bring you comfort at this most difficult time. Take care of yourself.
Beautifully stated Nagi 💖🙏🌹
So so many have been through this time in their lives with Fur Babies. God has gifted us the perfect ones. May prayers of healing, gratefulness, memories and Love fill your Heart at this difficult time in your life 💖💖🙏🙏🌹🌹
My heart is with you Nagi, I do surely understand how you are feeling but when I lost each of my 3 dogs, the pain of loss will never match the joy and love that these members of my family gave me. You know that better than I. God bless. xxxxxx
Aww I’m so sorry Nagi x
There are no words that will ease the pain you’re feeling. I’ve been in your position and know that your heartbreak feels impossible to get past. Sending hugs and comfort to you. Please take care of yourself.
I am so sorry for your loss, Nagi. Losing a pet really is losing a family member. You gave him an amazing life and you should be proud of that. Sending you love and hugs.
I am so sorry for your loss, I love your recipes and was so happy to find how much you loved and included dozer in your life. I am a dog lover too and they are simply the best.
dear NAGI I AM SO SORRY .YOU HAVE SO MANY HAPPY MEMORIES OF DOZER THAT WILL LIVE ON IN YOUR HEART
I am so sorry for your loss! I hope all the good times and memories of your time with Dozer will be able to comfort you! Love and Prayers 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
Oh my goodness, my heart is breaking for you. I love seeing him on your website. We are going through the ending of our last pup and it hurts each day but man, how lucky are we to have that love in our lives!!! Sending hugs.
I’m so sorry, Nagi. Dozer was the most loved and he knew it. You gave him the best life ever.
Love you Nagi ❤️
I am from Canada and I’ve been following you and dozer for a couple of years. I got attached to both of you. My sincere condoleances for your lost, but you have great memories. I had 2 dogs and 1 cat and they all passed away in the same year. So I can relate to your lost. Sending you love from the city of Lavaltrie in Canada.
My condolences. We will all miss Doser. My heart goes out to you, this will be a rough time. Much love surrounds you through it.