I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
Oh my Nagi im so sorry i have a dog and its hard to imagine what id do without her rip dozer
Nagi, I’m so very sorry for your loss… It has been so sweet seeing the mentions of Dozer in your posts all these years.
You gave him the best life he could have had with all that love, right up to the very end. Please take care of yourself, grief can very hard on a person.
Big hugs from Singapore, from an internet stranger reading this sad news.
I am so sorry to hear of Dozer’s demise, These critters get into our hearts and leave a great big hole when they leave, They say that time heals all wounds. I hope that your wounds heal quickly ec=ven though Dozer will never be forgotten.
Hugs
Pete
Ohhh Nagi I’m reading this sobbing 😭 I really hope you are doing okay and I know how hard it is to say goodbye to your fur baby! Sending big hugs 🩷
It so hard losing a loving pet ( child) of your heart his memories live with you forever I’m sorry for your loss
My heart resonates with what you have been through …so similar to our loss … when such an incredibly special dog becomes part of your soul it’s hard to describe the sense of loss. There are no words …. Hope time helps heal your heart … blessings and prayers …
Sending lots of love.
I know the heartache of losing a beautiful dog. I love Dozer and will miss him too. Love to you, Nagi, look after yourself. You have brought a lot of joy to my family with your incredible recipes and your updates about Dozer
I am so sorry to hear that Dozer passed away. Thank you for sharing stories of him over the years. It was always fun to come across that gorgeous furry face when looking for another great recipe. I hope you are able to find comfort in your memories of the blessed, lovely boy that was Dozer.
🌈🐶 Rest In Peace Dozer, hope you meet my wonderful boy Bud, gave us 14 1/2years of unadulterated love and like you Nagi, is so very much missed still 💕🐶💕
Nagi so sorry to hear you have lost your gorgeous soul mate. I have loved following him with your recipes but he had a beautiful life and could not have been loved more by you and all your followers. It’s heart breaking but it’s life and we still need your recipes. RIP gorgeous Dozer
Nagi so sorry to hear you have lost your gorgeous soul mate. I have loved following him with your recipes but he had a beautiful life and could not have been loved more by you and all your followers. It’s heart breaking but it’s life and we still need your recipes. RIP gorgeous Dozer
Dear Nagi. So sorry. Just to say please take your time to get up an going again. Time doesn’t heal but it gives you the space to adapt. Dozer was one in a million. xxx
Nagi, I have no words that will take away your grief. Dozer will remain in not just your memories but in the hearts of so many, the world over. I will miss him on your site.
Much love ,Priya
Dear Nagi,
Very sorry you lost your love🐾 I loved watching your antics together . May his paw print stayed etched on your heart . Stay kind to your self and let your heart heal 💐
I am so sorry for your loss. I can’t even look at pictures of Dozer without weeping. He had exactly the same birthday as my dog, who died last July. It is brutal to lose them.
Hi Nagi, just wanted to convey my condolences on the loss of your beautiful side kick Dozer 💔 My heart breaks for you as I know first hand what your loss feels like. I know it doesn’t feel like it now, but you will heal from this in time, and you will find comfort on your many memories that you made together. Thinking of you & sending hugs xo ❣️
God, so sorry for your loss. Just read the news, shame on me. Condolences. Dozer was such a radiant creature, can’t imagine how it feels.
Take care. Our beloved ones know we miss them🖤
Love to you and Sweet Sweet Dozer in Heaven . Say ” hi” to my Sweet Angel, Marley , Dozer. He got his wings just 2 months before you . Thank you Sweet Sweet Puppernutters. Hugs and kisses my loves.
Nagi, I cried when I read your post because I could relate to it 100%. In 2020, we lost our dear Pele (black Lab Border Collie) when he was 14. I laid beside him and held his paw until he took his last breath. He was the best dog–gentle, loving, faithful, smart–and was alongside me during many triumphs, trials, and adventures. I cried frequently after his loss and still get emotional when I see his picture. I pray you feel God’s comfort. As someone said, “I don’t know if there are dogs in heaven, but I will snap my fingers and whistle for mine.” Thank you for sharing.